i hate.
hate hate hate. when someone asks me: "so, what is God doing in your life?"
i just want to respond, "well, heck if i know. ask me in a month or so and i can tell you what he
was doing." except i never respond that because it's not correct christian-ese.
but right now God is doing something in my life (and ben's life) and i'm seeing it little by little. he's making me wait. he's preparing a way for me. he's testing my faith. he's demonstrating provision. he's reminding me of his faithfulness in my life and in my relationship with ben.
we're moving.
moving. in july? in august? something like that.
we knew ben would go to grad school for something. we knew he wanted to do something more with a biology degree. we didn't know what until he was invited to life university for a preview weekend. which we wouldn't have even gone to if it wasn't all expenses paid (hotel room, travel, food). but once ben was there a lightbulb went off & he knew that's what he wanted to do. he could be accepted for the fall semester, he didn't need any other pre-requisists, he didn't need to take any more standardized grad school test, he would be out of school in three and a half years.
accepted? check.
now, i have to find a job. the right job or
any job.
our pastor spoke on sunday about the nature of our prayers. one thing he said really struck me. he reminded us that we need to pray
big. the Lord does not have mediocre plans for my life -- why should i? i was reminded of the Lord's faithfulness in my life and in my relationship with ben. nothing even close to mediocre. is my faith so small that i should make tiny requests to a God who has shown me immeasurably more provision that i could ever imagine? i guess it has been.
Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever!
Ephesians 3:20 & 21
this week i have a new attitude about our next few months. i will find a job. it will be the right job, the best place for me, a place where i will grow and thrive, we will have a roof over our heads and food on the table. we will strengthen our relationship with each other and the Lord. there is nothing to be worried about.
not a thing.
and that my friends is what God is doing in my life.